That one night.

"Kenneth (00: 01:45): i like u bye."

So many words that explains everything.

I just really hate how the world is right now. So many people are down. Relationships arnt worth it. Heart breaks, fights, depression, etc. I can just write a whole book about how i feel ever since it happened. I know that i may sound emo right now but I guess I am. Go ahead and call me that idgaf. So many people are in such horrible moods, including me. Why cant people understand how WE feel? Boys are dumb =) So many words cant really explain how i feel besides horrible, depression, emo, and sadness. All I want is to be happy AGAIN. But that ONE PERSON had to ruin it for me. NO, I dont regret having you in my life because your the one who made me happy the most. No lie or doubt about that. I dont regret any second I had with you. Your kisses & hugs I will miss, always. I dont regret meeting you. I dont regret anything about you. Because if i did I would "regret being happy". Even tho we may have drifted apart, always remember that you will always be a friend, a pal, and a guy that I can always love even tho we drifted apart. These words come from the heart. It may sound very very very weird, but who cares yah know? I'm venting my feelings by writing.

Girls should know that relationships arnt worth it. As long as your surrounded my loving and positive people, then your fine =) thats my moto. Never forget the finer things in life.

Officially the first day of summer.

It's the first day of summer and I had nothing to do today. But just a while ago Arriane, Kevin, and I was trying to help Ismael get over a girl so he can have the best life ever ! But no, he just wont listen. I bet your going to regret it too .

gooosh -.-

Today in the morning, I thought it was going to be my final goodbye to Ismael aka "ismeezy". First and second period was nothing. Break time, that was my final goodbye to Kianna Aquino. We hugged and cried at the same time ='( My dearest mommy, dont change and dont forget me. No matter how far we are you know that i will still love you. Later, Kevin got out Guia's bra cause we were going to go swimming later =) pretty random ahah . So then, after break we went to ms. russels classrom :D I hung out with Guia, Adrian, Bryana, Kristian, Andrew, and Jen :D pretty fun :) took hella pics. A few minutes later, we walk to the pool breh ! :D it got hot after a while, when the weather was pretty cold to me o_o wtfff ? ahaha .Omggg when we got to the pool i was pretty shy ! xD shiiiet . but i brought my confidence up and just had fun :D we went swimming and i forgot to put effing sunblock ! xD lmfao . but whatever the sun wasnt up anyways ! xD ehh, i think i lost my headband in the pool thoo ! gooosh -.- but then i was tired of swimming, so i went in the locker room and changed back into regular clothes. after that i ate food :D a freaking sandwich, some of adrian's L&L , hot cheetos, and some of bryana's lunchables xD Lalalalala.... took more pictures and talked . Laterrrr , we went back to school. We saw Ismeezy at pe ! :D YAY ! After school we went to mcdonalds :D yessss , that filled my stomach and made it happy :) then walked back to school with ismeezy and caroline . Then got picked up and dropped ismael home ahahaha . K now im done. Im glad i went :) i got to know some new people and had a fun time before school was over .

ILOVEYOU(:

KIANNA A. (5:28:10 PM): My babbbygirl Reka, Man, Im leaving youu, why babehs. Take care in 8th grade. Dont get into drama at all next school year. But if you do, im here on aim or on the phone oks? Dont forget your Momma, cos ill be there & wont forget you. Thats why tomrrow will have plently of pictures to rem of nizz, i wont delete pictures tomrrow, like you said, its MEMORIES! haha, keep alla my moded picture in your computer, cos sure of it, you would be crying. Ill ask my mom to come to your promotion since my brather is graduting with you. And ill support you there. (: Tell me whats happening in SPMS ok? Take care, I lovve you with everything. And when you need help, mommma is here(: Ill remeber everything we been thru. DU ? Ill try to join that . In time will be famous, i hope haha. Dont mind guys in these grades, cos i been thru there. and i dont want you following my terrible footsteps. eureka, I LOVEYOU(: ok? Dont forget that. Ill be on aim, and on myspace. tell me everything & ill make you feel better. And up 8th grader , happy right? But live 8th grade year well. Cos fasho you would miss SPMS(: . Knownleage is POWER !(: Loves you .

Happy birthday ...

SHANNA SANTOS ! love you cousin :D happy birthday !

My Day ...

I need to finish my research report ! -.- Dang , why cant teachers give us a break ? Anyways , it was pretty hot today =/ today at lunch i did the SPONGEBOB ! =D its easy :) P.E. .... HAHA , Darren your such a dork aha . So yeah . I'm currently talking to my best friend JACKIE JOHNSON on aim :) Jackie , "boys are dumb.forget about them." its true thoo . math was fun, like always . Guia , Ismael , Arriane , Brianna , and I are very loud :) we just LOVE to laugh hehe . I guess thats it :P

Current Status: [missing his kisses]

I never knew that I would fall for you so much. I miss the times when we were together. Especially the laughs, the hugs, the kisses, and even the moments when we were just being silly. But all of that is gone now. Ever since it happened I havn't been myself. All of the crying, the depression, and all of the thinking has been all of the stuff I've been doing lately. Nobody can really make me happy except you. You're the one who has completed my world, but now it has all come crashing down... I hate being like this. All I want to do is be happy again. I need to stop thinking about all of the negative and start thinking about the positive. If i ever have one wish, I would wish for you to be with me again. I'm jealous of how people are so happy with their lives right now. Im the only negative person in this whole world. People say that I should move on and to stop crying, but i never listen because there is no need for me to listen. I don't know what to do now. I don't know how to move on. And especially, I don't know how to forget you. You're always in my mind 24/7. When we hang out I always think about the memories me and you had together. I miss those. I wish you were with me again. Nothing can explain how much I like you so much. Writing this made me think about me moving on. But should I? I don't know, you tell me. Maybe I should move on. But then again, I want to stay like this because it will make me learn more about you. Moving on is a big thing. I really hope one day I can be happy again...

May 19,2009

[could of been 5 months

My day today . "she's gonna drop a bomb !" HAHA . english was boring as always . math was fun :) math class always has a reason to make me forget about "certain" things .science , did workbook -_- ahah . lunch ... i was crying again =/ dang its not my fault that i miss him so much . pe , we were in sex ed today ahah ! =) but it was boring ! again ! the first day of sex ed was hella funny lmao . history , boring . almost fell asleep again ahhaha . after school , sorry michael & brandon i never really say hi to you guys anymore ;) ahah anyways how was your day ? mines was boring , sad , depressing , & fun :)

Yesterday.

UGHH , biiitch you dont know me . stop judging me when you dont even know me like that . stupid eggot .

Now.

I'm eating lays :) the sour cream and onion kinds ahah . right now i have to do homework , but i feel sleepy ! then i have to do my research report for english =/ lalala , im boooored . i need pictures with EVERYONE before the school year is over . i'm going to miss your asses :) i hope during summer we can kick it :D